Tomorrow is the day that I was SUPPOSED to run my first half marathon. I registered for it at least 4 months ago (I'm thinking even longer than that). I was supposed to start training for it in February.
But, as with the rest of my fitness, I put the training on hold due to my new job. I had to stop and think, "If I do this, why am I doing it?" I did want to do it, but I would have been doing it at this point simply because I said I was going to when others said I couldn't. But I wouldn't be doing it because I was prepared. And I decided I didn't want to risk injury. I didn't want to prevent myself from training for other races like Steamboat and my marathon because I wasn't smart enough to say I wasn't ready for this one. And, the half marathon was in Wisconsin, so it wouldn't be smart to get hurt there where it would be difficult for me to get home.
I don't regret the time I've spent at work. I am on a new account that needed (s) the time put into it. I love what I'm doing, the people I work with, and feel greatly appreciated (most of the time). My particular account/product isn't one that comes naturally to me, so I do have to put more prep time into it than others might. At least for me to be comfortable. And me being comfortable means a lot for my happiness and mood.
I stand by something I said in either another blog post or possibly a Facebook post (quite honestly, I probably said it in both places) that it was okay to sacrafice my personal life a little bit for months, even maybe a year, if it meant then living easy and fullfilled for a lifetime.
What I do regret is that part of what I sacraficed was my fitness which I had been finding great joy in improving. I couldn't remember a time feeling better or having as much fun. And the types of friendships I was making were incredibly different than any I had had before.
So, I've sat down with my Chalene Johnson Push book and I'm going to take a new look at my values and priorities. Did they change? Or did I just lose site of them? Was my plan not good enough or did I just not follow it. Did I not do enough to keep my priority statements the forefront in my mind. I've read it recently and I still agree with it. Do I need to do something different to keep myself reminded of it.
What I know is that I loved how I felt when I was working hard towards my fitness goals.
So, I'm going to sit back, read, and plan. And the balance of work/fitness/life is going to be a little more equal going forward.
